Fidelio
I went to a couple of interviews today. I must say that both of these companies are part of miracles that I've been waiting for. I've been out of a job for awhile and I've been down and out mentally. And after the blessing prayer that I received last July 10th (I shall blog that too), although it's not an instant answer, it's an answer nonetheless.
Now as this night grew my mind started boggling again. The day was starting okay, but as I was nearing the job interviews, I got some lectures again, about behaving like an ungrateful kid and what not. All I did was just being nervous, hence my attitude became a bit cold. I got 2 interviews waiting back to back and while trying to maintain my composure and stay positive, I got a pep talk that I'm not 'all' that. It's not that I'm blaming the talk too, because I did feel that I do some of those bad stuff too. But was it a good time to say so and bring it up, that was my concern. I needed encouragement, not criticism that so 'lovingly' be labeled as correction (and to all of you who are keen with Proverbs, please check Proverbs 12:1. That verse been used to taunt me. I wanted to reply back with Ephesians 6:4, but when will it ends? And then she would say that I may read the Bible but never act as how a good Christian should be. I almost wanted to blurt out, "What about you?" but that would be called a total disrespect, and asking for World War 3 to break in my living room. So I just quietly swallowed everything again). Sometimes that's why I don't like telling my parents that I got interviews lining up, because I'm afraid that these things happen and I don't have the energy to fight. I know that it's good that they care and I am very grateful, but sometimes I felt as though I'm being smothered.
Authoritarian parenting aside, I went to interview 1. It's an Italian company which offers services for Italian businesses to open their offices/ branches in Singapore. I was very interested, because they're dealing with fashion, food, and other Italian products. The thing was the working hours. The interviewer only told me that it's not going to be a 9-5 job, the hours will fluctuate depending on the business. But I was elated after the interview and from the sounds of things there will be a second interview.
Then I went to interview 2. It's a government company which offers me exposure in event management field which I was also interested. This is only a temporary job, though. The interviewer told me that the working hours is as posted on the door, a.k.a. the 9-5 job (but I learnt a bit in Singapore, that those things are non existent, meaning the "9-5" is just a term, this company starts at 8.30am to 6pm... There!). I was keen on this job at the beginning, but after learning more about the first company during interview, I got confused.
Later on I learned that even job interview 2 may not really offer me a 9-5 job either. Especially in event management you can expect to have a lot of overtime, but just in case things not working out, I can get out in 3 months time. It's not that I opted for a way out soon before I started working, but what if the job doesn't suit me later on? It's always all nice and flowery on the beginning, but there's the possibility that the "image shown is larger than the real object" type of deal. And then here's the thing with the working hours again. So you people who are working in US, I think you have to be grateful with your hourly rate plus overtime pay; because once I step in Singapore there's a thing about being thick-faced and ask what kinda of 'overtime' benefit you would get. 'Cuz hun, you may ain't got none. I was so used with the automatic 'union-ized' working time and pay, I keep on forgetting that things are different here. Those things don't apply no more. I felt like being a part of a cheap labor in this well-oiled society when I joined my previous company.
Another thing that bothers me, that when I started to take on the job, I may not be able to be with my friends and my ministries as much. So where should I go? I'm just going to rely this one solely to God. Unless I want to settle with some boring desk job that will guarantee the perfect timing for clocking out (doubt if there's any in Singapore), I have to pray for a miracle that such creative and interesting job with great timing and pay does exist. I mean I love my ministries, especially my singing, and my friends and the thought of having to give them up... *sigh*... It's so hard. I just have to stay positive and think positive and believe that everything will work out. Claim it all with faith!
Semper Fi!
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Corinthians 10:13
Now as this night grew my mind started boggling again. The day was starting okay, but as I was nearing the job interviews, I got some lectures again, about behaving like an ungrateful kid and what not. All I did was just being nervous, hence my attitude became a bit cold. I got 2 interviews waiting back to back and while trying to maintain my composure and stay positive, I got a pep talk that I'm not 'all' that. It's not that I'm blaming the talk too, because I did feel that I do some of those bad stuff too. But was it a good time to say so and bring it up, that was my concern. I needed encouragement, not criticism that so 'lovingly' be labeled as correction (and to all of you who are keen with Proverbs, please check Proverbs 12:1. That verse been used to taunt me. I wanted to reply back with Ephesians 6:4, but when will it ends? And then she would say that I may read the Bible but never act as how a good Christian should be. I almost wanted to blurt out, "What about you?" but that would be called a total disrespect, and asking for World War 3 to break in my living room. So I just quietly swallowed everything again). Sometimes that's why I don't like telling my parents that I got interviews lining up, because I'm afraid that these things happen and I don't have the energy to fight. I know that it's good that they care and I am very grateful, but sometimes I felt as though I'm being smothered.
Authoritarian parenting aside, I went to interview 1. It's an Italian company which offers services for Italian businesses to open their offices/ branches in Singapore. I was very interested, because they're dealing with fashion, food, and other Italian products. The thing was the working hours. The interviewer only told me that it's not going to be a 9-5 job, the hours will fluctuate depending on the business. But I was elated after the interview and from the sounds of things there will be a second interview.
Then I went to interview 2. It's a government company which offers me exposure in event management field which I was also interested. This is only a temporary job, though. The interviewer told me that the working hours is as posted on the door, a.k.a. the 9-5 job (but I learnt a bit in Singapore, that those things are non existent, meaning the "9-5" is just a term, this company starts at 8.30am to 6pm... There!). I was keen on this job at the beginning, but after learning more about the first company during interview, I got confused.
Later on I learned that even job interview 2 may not really offer me a 9-5 job either. Especially in event management you can expect to have a lot of overtime, but just in case things not working out, I can get out in 3 months time. It's not that I opted for a way out soon before I started working, but what if the job doesn't suit me later on? It's always all nice and flowery on the beginning, but there's the possibility that the "image shown is larger than the real object" type of deal. And then here's the thing with the working hours again. So you people who are working in US, I think you have to be grateful with your hourly rate plus overtime pay; because once I step in Singapore there's a thing about being thick-faced and ask what kinda of 'overtime' benefit you would get. 'Cuz hun, you may ain't got none. I was so used with the automatic 'union-ized' working time and pay, I keep on forgetting that things are different here. Those things don't apply no more. I felt like being a part of a cheap labor in this well-oiled society when I joined my previous company.
Another thing that bothers me, that when I started to take on the job, I may not be able to be with my friends and my ministries as much. So where should I go? I'm just going to rely this one solely to God. Unless I want to settle with some boring desk job that will guarantee the perfect timing for clocking out (doubt if there's any in Singapore), I have to pray for a miracle that such creative and interesting job with great timing and pay does exist. I mean I love my ministries, especially my singing, and my friends and the thought of having to give them up... *sigh*... It's so hard. I just have to stay positive and think positive and believe that everything will work out. Claim it all with faith!
Semper Fi!
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Corinthians 10:13
posted by God's Grace | 11:35 PM
1 Comments:
Amen!! Pray and seek God. He will direct and give you the peace of mind to make the right decision.
Praying for you!
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