Where the heart is

Yesterday, as we rested at the end of the day, we chatted. Jon had told me several times that bedtime at night is his favorite time of the day since we can just relax and talk until we drifted to sleep. Last night was no exception. But he made a remark that made me think even until today.

For the past two days, I screened two of my favorite chick flicks to him. And especially after watching “Babel”, I really need to see something lighthearted. Man! That movie was really depressing. So he got to see “Where The Heart Is” and “Love Actually” with me. Although I can tell for the first few moments, especially for “Where The Heart Is”, was kind of slow for him judging from his many comments during the show. But he managed to enjoy the shows, or at least pretended to enjoy them. He learned the meaning of “fornication” more vividly than before and by watching “Love Actually” he tries to come up with an "epiphany". Funny guy.

Then he summarized both his movie experiences. It seemed to him the movie portrayed American girls as brainless. I thought that was beside the point. It's all about the heart. But then his next sentence really gnawed at me.

“American girls are so stupid, huh? Just like my wife…” but before I managed to smack him, he added, “...to end up marrying a guy like me…” I was at loss for words. He was not facing me when he said those words and somewhat in the trance of slumber. What kind of statement was that? I told him that it was a sad statement, and when he asked me why, I couldn’t answer. It’s just too broad. Why would he just randomly said those word?

I marvelled at those sentence, because I could not even imagine my life without him. We are not the richest financially, but we do get by, and quite well also, plus his heart for God is also one of the things that I am grateful of each day (Dear Lord, please don't ask us for missions, tho :P. I am not the Safari type). He likes to make me laugh and patient toward my mood swings. He is God's blessing for me in a lot of ways.

I always thought there were elements of truth in every joke and this time joking or not, there’s a certain pinch I felt as his words opened both negative and positive connotations. Perhaps he gathered all this simple sentence to convey his feelings as a reaction, perhaps, to the things that I said, although I never meant any harm and it's just for the sake of chattering. Or perhaps it reflected from my attitude, which was not judgment of who he is as a person, but merely because I was not feeling my best. I tried not to read too much into it.

And as the lights out, I hugged him and I verbally thanked the Lord for the love of my life. He sleepily chimed in. Ditto...